drifting wood

There are times when I feel like all I am is drifting wood. I feel as if I have fell off of something that was once alive, and been floating on water ever since. It is ok to float aimlessly being taken from one shore line to the next, but at times I feel tired. I just want to land somewhere, and dry off. But, I should sit back and enjoy the ride that I am on. I know that once drift wood lands, some of it gets burned, while others are rescued, shaped, sculpted, and made into something unique and beautiful. It really just takes vision to see what's beyond the drifting. I think that is what I lack most of the time.

As I stood on stage tonight and told the story of Jonathan again, I thought, I am tired of pushing through the pain. I told the people, "If we could just see what's on the other side of the pain, we would gladly take it. God has so much for us if we would just push through". I do believe those words, but I just don't want to do them.

Im tired. I have accepted my calling, so I WILL move on from AL to the next place, I WILL get up and speak what the Lord tells me to say, and I WILL do it for as long as HE wills me to do it. I just long for more days that are not so tiring and drifty.