2:30 for real this time....

So many things happening in just a few days....

Happy Mothers Day to all of you ladies out there.  I don't care if you are a "Mother" because you had a child, or if you didn't, if you take care of those around you and show love to God's people, I consider you a mother. :)  I hope you all had a wonderful day.  Mine was...well...sad.


Drew was out of town and couldn't get back from New York until Sunday night.  So I talked to him briefly in the morning and burst into tears when I was done.  I guess I just felt alone and emotional. I was sad because my mom wasn't here.  And I was happy because of this amazing little boy in my womb.  And I was sad because there are so many who never have children, or who are still waiting for them.  That day, Mothers Day, is so painful to so many people and I couldn't just enjoy the day.  But I decided to try.

I didn't want to go to church because, although I LOVE my church I just felt like being alone.  I decided to go to the local breakfast place and get some eggs and potatoes.  I sat at the bar next to a woman and her young daughter.  They played tic-tak-toe and I thought it was amazing that she was blessing her daughter that morning, the morning that she should be honored.  On the other side of me was an elderly couple.  Hardly saying a word to one another they ate their eggs and rye toast and then payed the bill and made room for 2 single middle aged men. They seemed very jovial much like the brothers Click and Clack.  It made me smile. After leaving there I went to Starbucks where I asked them to write Happy Mothers Day on my cup as well as put a heart on top.

Although it was supposed to be a steamed milk frothy coffee art, the carmel worked too.  I realized, sometimes if you want to feel good, you just have to ask for what you want.   And that day, I wanted a cup that said, "Happy Mother's Day", and so I asked. :)  It's a good reminder to me that if I really want to feel better, tell people what I need and they would be happy to help me out.  Generally, people like helping people.






The day ended with picking up drew from the airport.  I was so happy to see him.  I missed him horribly last week.  I was very thankful for my friend Tomi coming to stay with me though.  She cooked for me and kept me company all week.  It was so fun.

We even spent 4 hours shopping when neither of us really like to shop! haha. We had a great time though.  I'm thankful for those that called and also offered to have me over or come stay with me.  Again, I am loved.

So yeah, today I lost my first adult tooth.  Although it was a bit traumatic mentally, it was pretty painless and so far still no pain.  Here's the view I had from my seat...

I have the BEST dentist. Finally. I went to the worst dentist last year which is how I got in this mess.  But now the best dentist is making it all better.  So I just took a tea bag out of my mouth because my dentist called to see how I was doing and told me to put a tea bag on it to stop the bleeding.  It was still bleeding a bit.  I think it worked for the most part.  The only thing that really hurts now is where he gave me the shots.  Which I'm thankful for.  I'm pretty tired though.  I really tried to stay calm all day so the baby wouldn't feel anxious.  I kept playing in my head that 80's song, "doin it all for my baby...".  I think our baby liked that. So now I'm one toothless of a full mouth.  It's ok. I have lots of friends who have lost teeth.  It just feels strange and I'm not sure he will give me a bridge or anything until we make sure the other tooth is ok.  He hinted that might be after the baby is born.  Oh well.  At least the infection is gone and I don't have to worry about the infection spreading to the baby.  THAT is all that matters. :)  And he kicked the whole time to remind me to stay calm...and that he loves me.

I'm thankful for friends who offer to get groceries for me, and friends that bring me mashed potatoes on their 25th anniversary, and friends that check in on me cuz they know sometimes life can be challenging.  I truly have the greatest friends. And now I'm going to finish my peanut butter smoothie and go to bed.  Glad this day is over, but feeling blessed that it wasn't THAT bad.

                                                 

And feeling great at 24 weeks!

friends and flips

It's been a bit since I've last written.  It seems like I've been a bit busy these past few weeks.  We made 2 trips to GR, one for a visit to Drew's moms and the other was to celebrate our friend Amiee's 40th bday.  They were very fun trips filled with trips to the baby Gap as well as nights full of laughter.  I love getting together with my friend Amiee.  The times always end up with me laughing so hard that I have to think of something sad to stop laughing because it starts to hurt my stomach so bad.  For real.  I've got some really funny friends.  I'm so thankful!

People have been SO generous to me!  We have and keep receiving many gifts from maternity clothes to gifts for the baby.  Thank you everyone for your help! It's making my life so easy! Even drew has gotten in the baby buying mood.  He's bought a few outfits for our little guy and even some cute Sesame Street books.  He loves Sesame Street. I have to admit, I do too. Classic Sesame though, we haven't really seen it in a while but I imagine the voices are different as we all get older.

Drew is in New York this week.  He has to go to either New York or California for classes once every term.  This time it was New York.  It's the first time he met all his classmates that he will be studying with for the next 5 years.  He said overall it has been awesome.  They basically sit around for 8 hours talking about the meaning of life, God, dreams, man etc.  He is in Heaven.  I miss him so much, but every time I talk to him he's having such a blast and he sounds so happy.  I've never been more thankful for him starting school.  He's been waiting a long time to do this and I'm so excited for him to get into the program and start walking towards his life long goal of teaching.  And he's excited too.  He sounds like a kid who just walked into his first trip to Cedar Point.  So many things to experience, adrenaline pumping, ready for those upside down rollar coasters.  He walked a TON the first night, mostly because he was excited.  So by day 2 he had a few blisters that he has had to baby a bit.  But it really didn't stop him as we went out walking the next night too.  He's just so excited to be in the city. I don't blame him.  The city is exciting.

I can't remember if I mentioned my tooth ache.  I think I did.  Well, since then, I've been in ZERO pain.  I'm so thankful.  My appointment was still scheduled for May 21st to get my tooth removed, until last week. On Monday my gums started swelling next to the "toxic tooth".  Again, no pain, just swelling.  The next day it was bigger.  The third day it was like the elephant man but only in my mouth.

 ******CAUTION!!!!!!!!!!!!  THIS NEXT PART IS COMPLETELY GROSS!!!!!!!!********

I got to work that morning and I was looking (looking, not poking...just looking) at my gum when all of a sudden it....well....it....exploded.  There, I said it.  So nasty puss and blood was gushing out as I grabbed kleenix after kleenix at my desk trying to not faint from disgust.  Even now it makes my stomach turn and feel upset. It was by far one of the most disgusting things I had ever experienced.  Yes, I called the dentist begging for a closer appointment.  Again, I'm not in any pain and I'm SO thankful, but as I've been praying that God would just heal this thing so I don't have to go to the dentist again I realized, well, I guess I should just get it over with and take the stupid tooth out.  So now I'm scheduled for Tuesday.  We have a very busy week as Monday we have an OB appointment and then Tuesday I will go in to get it removed.  I'm going to tell him to remove both the back teeth if he thinks they both need to come out.  I have a feeling they both do and I dont want to be back here again in a month doing this over.  So...yeah.    He told me to start my antibiotics (which I HATE that I have to take, but with every pill I swallow I pray that God will protect our baby boy from any medication that might hurt him.  Everything I've read said these antibiotics are ok for the baby and my dr also said that so I guess I should just trust them) so I started them yesterday. I take 4 a day. FOUR!  But I'm guessing they are a lower dose spread out throughout the day so that makes more sense to me than taking 2 heavy doses twice a day.   Idk.  I'm not a doctor.  I'm a little nervous about the procedure as when I got my wisdom teeth out I was put out.  This time I will only have my gums numb.  But I know it will be over soon and it will be ok.  When I saw that nasty stuff in my mouth all I wanted to do was get rid of it so it didn't spread and hurt the baby.  So that's my goal.  Do what I have to do to get rid of the infection.  Infection = bad.  I'm also thankful it's not my front teeth as there will be no replacing the teeth until after the baby is born.  :)  Good times.

I'm hoping I feel good the next day though.  I might ask to work from home that day. I don't know how much pain I will be in, but I don't really want to take any time off work because I only get so many days for maternity leave and every sick day I take counts against it.  I'm trusting God to provide for us so I can take as much time off as possible.

LEAKING! Holy crappers, I'm leaking.  I'm 23 weeks along and I'm leaking.  I'm talking to my doc about it Monday, and I've been told it's normal, but for the last few days strange marks are showing up on my shirts out of nowhere.  Luckily it only happens at night, but it's STRANGE! Laura told me again, that's it's normal.  She's my #1 pregnancy meter.  I feel our pregnancies have been pretty similar so I've asked her about the strange body changes all along.  She always says, "yup. that's normal".  Thank God for normal.  But I thought leaking would start more around week 35, not 23.  So I will see what my doc has to say.

I've got so much to do and really, really, really trying to get motivated to do some of it.  It's getting to the point where I just have to do it.  We have our first shower at the end of June and the invites are going out soon. So this week we have to register so they will know what to buy.  Registering is one of those things on my list that I've been avoiding.  I know it will be fun, but there are so many choices about things.  So I know you all have your favorit things you love and hate (even you aunties who take care of the babies sometimes!) so please message me and let me know what to get.  I think we know what stroller we want, but besides that I'm pretty much clueless.  I plan on breastfeeding but I think I need some bottles too.  Do you know how  many kinds of bottles are out there? Sheesh.  Not to mention the disposable vs. cloth debacle.  I have a feeling this is just the beginning of many many decisions.